I knew it was true
When I felt the same
Breaking my legs
As I did when I smiled
I thought happiness would come
If I achieved it all
But it never felt right
And nothing was wrong
I was troubled
After a decade of chasing
It was all in my mind
I said I was better
I felt less
Like it should be more
Because I was happy
But I wasn’t
I couldn’t tell
My loved ones this
Maybe I could show
But no
I dont want this
To make them feel less
Because I cant be more
Do it for them
I can’t let it out
Is what my mind told
Until it couldn’t
And I knew I had to try
I wanted denial
But I needed my truth
Depression is real
And it’s no ones fault
I didnt want to feel alone
Not anymore
To wrestle my mind
Day by day and night after night
I face them now
And hold on tight
A fight to win
No matter what
H.B. Catherine 